Gynophobia

023

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 00:07:42 GMT

Oh man. I heard about that building be set on fire on the news earlier... it's terrible that people would do that. I mean... I guess I can understand why they would want to... but, still. That's a bit drastic folks.

It's good to hear no one was hurt at least.

~~... Galen... passed away yesterday... the doctors couldn't help him... so I had him put down. He was getting too skinny and could barely move... shit...~~

(ooc: Luke and Asch can see the strike out, no one else 8D)

022

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 18:32:12 GMT

Oh man, curfew huh? I guess this is a good thing? It doesn't bother me at all, but uh, Luke, Asch, careful alright?

~~... man, Galen isn't getting any better and the vet isn't sure what to do... I'm worried.~~

Hani if you're ever out and need a place to stay if it gets too close to curfew you're welcome at my place. Hope you remember where it is?

021

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 19:24:15 GMT

I'm still really worried about Luke and Asch... but I'm starting to see that this is something they are going to have to work out themselves. But I'll be here for them if they need me for anything.

*sheepish* Oh and uh, sorry Sir (that'd be Peony XD) for not coming over to walk your pigs lately. Galen has been sick lately and I had to bring him to the vet. It was a huge mess. I've had to keep a close eye on him and didn't want to leave him alone any longer than when I'm at work. I hadn't really had a chance to mention it to you while at work so, thought I'd say something here.

020

Fri, 20 Jun 2008 16:37:52 GMT

Eh... father's day went by... I'm not too fond of any family holidays... it only reminds me of them. *sighs*

~~Man, I miss Mori and Honey.~~

How do Luke and Asch keep ending up in the hospital. I hate to say it, but Luke seemed much healthier before Asch came along. I love them both dearly, they're like my little brothers and all, but I hate seeing them getting hurt so much.

(ooc: Second strike cannot be hacked or seen or what not XD)

019

Wed, 11 Jun 2008 19:04:54 GMT

So uh... I guess I've become my boss' pig walker? It's not so bad... but... I feel bad that I haven't been around for Luke and Asch as much, between work and that.

I keep missing things with them... I want to help them. To be there for them, but I haven't really been doing a good job. I'm sorry guys.

Oh, gotta cut this short, Galen needs to go for a walk.

AND HAPPY BELATED TO THE TWINS! *is late and fails as a friend*

018

Fri, 23 May 2008 19:07:53 GMT

I can't believe someone would do that...

It's a sad world we live in, for someone to place so many lives in danger. I'm glad no one was hurt. Well... at least the children. Who knows about the men on stage. Now I'm afraid to let Luke or Asch go to school!

017

Fri, 09 May 2008 16:25:29 GMT

Luke and Asch are having a hard time lately... I... I'm not sure what to do. I know this is something they need to get through together but... I wish I could be more help. I'll give them my support and offer what I can, but I feel that this is something that they will fight on their own.

On another note: Uh... so Mori... he left. We got to see each other again before he did. He's not sure when or if he'll be back. Something about his family... ~~I'll miss him.~~

*sighs* I feel like life has just become one big gray mess lately... I need to cheer myself up. Maybe I could take Galen out to the park and play frisbee with him. It'd be good for both of us I think.

016

Mon, 21 Apr 2008 20:44:49 GMT

I'm sorry for not being around the last couple days. Luke and... Luke and Asch they were in the hospital. On their birthday too. I still can't believe it... he'd gone out to hang with some friends, as far as I'd known. But... it was later in the night, when I was starting to worry about where he was that I got a call. It was Susan. Apparently the hospital had called her to tell her about Luke. He'd overdosed on drugs... her..

I... Luke doesn't even know what drugs are!

Asch was there too... they were both so lucky. The doctors said it could have been fatal, but a neighbor found then. I just don't understand... Luke would never do such things... he doesn't even know about drugs... it... I hate to point fingers but... Asch...

I'm sorry. I shouldn't babble about this. I've been a horrible friend to Luke, and mentor. I need to watch him better, so he doesn't hurt himself again.

015

Sun, 13 Apr 2008 20:23:47 GMT

Talking with Asch always brings up things... that I want to forget... yet at the same time want to remember. It... it hurts. I hate this. I want to see their faces again... I want... Mary... ~~Mother and father... I wish I could remember what happened... I just know you all died in front of my eyes... but why? WHY!?~~

I wish sometimes that they'd done the same to me. Then I could with with them.

((ooc: Strikes are can't be read sorry 8D))

014

Thu, 03 Apr 2008 18:37:53 GMT

So uh... Mori... asked me on a date.

I didn't expect it at all. I mean... he's so quiet and... I wouldn't have thought he'd like me. At all. Not like that. It's very flattering though.

~~Asch... I'm sorry about everything... please don't take it out on Luke. We kept it from him after he lost his memory. Please, if you want to take your anger out on anyone it's me.~~

((ooc: strikes can only be seen by Asch))

013

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 15:41:49 GMT

Hey everyone! So uh, how have things been? I've neglected my journal as of late. I really shouldn't, though... I guess my life isn't very interesting? *chuckles*

Oh, well Luke's been doing pretty good in school, even if he does grumble and complain about it. He's getting better around Galen too, which I'm happy about. They sort of just... ignore each other. Which is better than him yelling at Galen.

OH! Yeah! Those classes I was suppose to be taking at Honey and Mori's dojo? Fantastic! It's lots of fun! Plus it's a good way to relieve stress and keep in shape. I even got Luke to come, though not sure how long that will last *chuckles* Mori is extremely patient with me, he's my teacher... uh sensei. Honey is teaching Luke, which is kind of cute ^__^

So uh, hope everyone is doing well!

012

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 18:07:51 GMT

So Luke is in school now. He's not very happy with me because of it but, he'll get over it. Maybe >__>;;;

It'll be good for him. He needs to get out and be with other people, to get use to being around more than just me and his family. Maybe he'll make friends? Learn some social skills? It might make me having friends around easier for him to accept as well.

Oh! I hope to start taking classes at Honey and Mori's dojo soon. I don't do enough physical stuff lately, I can't get lazy now *chuckles* It'll be good for me. Hmm... I'll have to see if Luke might want to try as well.

011

Wed, 05 Mar 2008 18:26:35 GMT

So... I some how managed to convince Luke's parents not to come and take him back. I think it was mostly because I talked to Susan... she has a soft spot for Luke, I think she understands his need for freedom of some sort. Though I doubt she'd let him do this if he weren't with me... but it's nice that I got through to them, er her, at least.

So uh... apparently Honey had a crush on me? Or so Mori had thought...I guess it was a misunderstanding... the whole idea is flattering, but I'm not sure what I would have done if he had. Honey looks like he's eight... I'd feel like such a pervert...

Um... I think... no... uh, never mind! *blushes*

010

Sat, 16 Feb 2008 16:43:38 GMT

Luke... is here.

I can't believe he ran away and came to find me. I guess I should be flattered? Though I'm not sure what to do. Should I call his parents? He'd be furious with me sure, but they must be worried sick about him. Especially poor Susan. She's such a weak thing, I'd hate to think what this is doing to her, she's probably sick with worry (literally).

Galen doesn't like Luke... at all. They didn't have a very good first meeting and uh... I think he's holding a grudge. I didn't realize dogs did that @___@ it's just weird cause Galen likes everyone, though Luke isn't very nice to him. *sighs* Man... what do I do?

009

Wed, 13 Feb 2008 15:29:13 GMT

Uh so Valentine's Day is tomorrow... I'm not sure what to do for it. I'll get the twins some candy of course, and I'll even buy Galen some of those doggie brownie bites he likes *chuckles* His been a good boy so he deserves them. No messes in the house for almost the whole month!

~~Still worried how things will smooth over with the twins on this day... but we'll see.~~

Is it bad that I've never had a 'sweetheart' on Valentines? *looks sheepish*

008

Sat, 09 Feb 2008 15:49:51 GMT

Yesterday me and Kaoru bumped into some old friends of his. From the Host Club. They weren't what I expected, but I do have to say they were very nice.

Honey... does not look twenty. I don't understand how he can be that old... he's so... CUTE and little. His cousin Mori on the other hand, he looks his age. Mori is a bit... quiet, but he's a nice guy.

It'd be nice to hang out with Mori again, oh and Honey too! *coughs and goes shifty eyed* ^__^;;;

I'll need to eat all this candy in moderation though, wouldn't want to get a tooth ache.

007

Sat, 02 Feb 2008 17:14:43 GMT

So... I think things are slowly patching up between the twins... I still think Kaoru is being to hard on himself.

Oh, it seems that some of Kaoru and Hikaru's friends are in the area. They'd told me about them before. Something about a host club back in the day. It sounds interesting, but certainly something I could never do. Not with my phobia @___@

Maybe I'll get to meet some of these infamous host club friends of theirs?

@__@ and my god... Galen has grown so big in such little time! I'm kind of sad that he's not going to stay little and cute. Though... right now he's in this awkward stage of being... a puppy and growing into an adult. Haha, he's in his teenager stage I guess. I better get ready for the rebellious stage *chuckles*

006

Thu, 24 Jan 2008 17:32:49 GMT

... I'm still really worried about Kaoru. He's been acting really strange lately... I guess he's been taking it out pretty hard on himself. I need to talk with Hikaru... but I have a feeling that won't make everything all better.

*sighs*

Besides that... when me and Kaoru are hanging out and he's kind of in a good mood, he keeps telling me that I need to get a boyfriend... >__> why not a girlfriend? *blushes lightly* I guess I can understand why he thinks that, with my phobia and all, but I've never liked another man before so... I'm not sure that could happen. Who knows honestly, I wouldn't be against it if it did happen. Love is love after all.

005

Wed, 16 Jan 2008 15:45:29 GMT

So Christmas and New Years are over now, but... I'm still a bit down. I guess starting another new year without my family still bothers me. I thought I was getting better about it... but I guess not. Haha, sounds like how much better I'm not getting with my phobia. Oh well... can't force myself to just suddenly be fine.

Oh well good news though! Galen has stopped trying to get into the trash and eat it. Thank goodness. I was getting tired of having to lock the trash in the closet just so he wouldn't get to it. He's starting to play more with the toys I've gotten him.

I think I might have to give him a bath though... he's starting to smell a little funny... hopefully he'll like taking baths? That would make it much much easier.

.............. I'm really worried about Kaoru. He's been coming over a lot lately, which is great, there's nothing more fun than having a friend over.. but... I just hope things smooth over soon with him and Hikaru. I hate to see things strained between them.

004

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 16:28:39 GMT

I guess Galen is going to be staying with me then. Not that I mind, he's a very good puppy. He's only made a few messes in the house so far... though he seems to have gotten a sudden taste for trash. If I don't keep an eye on him he likes to attack the trash can and knock it over. I don't know what's so great about rotting food to that puppy but it seems to drive him crazy. I'll have to find someplace to put it where he can't get to it...

OH. Yeah... um so I met these twins... Hikaru and Kaoru... they uh... adopted me? They're really nice but um... I'm not use to being flirted with by other men so it's a bit strange. I don't dislike it I guess... it's just odd. I told them they're the first to ever come up to me like that, and they just told me that PLENTY of men have thought the same things they did if not more. They just didn't act on it. OH BOY @__@ I wasn't sure what to think about that.

~~Christmas is almost here... I'll be glad when it's over...~~

003

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 02:49:37 GMT

So it's getting closer to Christmas... *sighs* I feel really down around this time of the year. It's kind of difficult to keep up the appearance that all is well when... well it isn't. Though I have to be thankful that I do have someone to spend it with this year! Granted he's four legged and furry and can't talk, but he's the best company I've had in forever.

*sighs heavily* I just... I miss them... mother and father... and Mary...

I need to perk up, letting this get to me won't make things any better. Maybe Galen, yeah I finally gave him a name, will play with me? Haha or we could snuggle on the couch and watch television. He seems to enjoy that after a rough day of playing tug and walking in the park ^__^

T__T still no luck finding his family.

002

Sat, 24 Nov 2007 18:42:35 GMT

Well taking the advice of a few people... the next time I saw that nice girl from work, I brought her aside and explained a few things to her. She took it fairly well, I was surprised. It was cute how she reacted. When I told her I had a fear of women, she laughed. It was cute and bubbly, like she thought I was joking. Though... when she realized I wasn't she looked a bit guilty for laughing at me. It was sweet of her, she even apologized for it, looking like she'd done something horrible. I felt kind of bad after that. She started to act a bit distant... like I'd told her I didn't want to talk to her again or something, which wasn't what I wanted at all. The next few days after that she didn't seek me out as much, and would mostly smile at me and be on her way.

*sighs* Man... why do I feel like I ruined something by telling her?

OH. On a happier note... I think? I was in the park recently and found ~~got run down by~~ this little black puppy. He came with a leash too, which was kind of handy. Sadly no tags on his collar... not sure who he belongs to. I've been trying to find his family, even made some nice fliers with a few different pictures of him on it. Hopefully they see them and call... I'd hate for them to be separated long. Though it doesn't seem to be bothering the puppy much. Man, he's a ball of energy! I can barely catch my breath before he wants to run around and play again. I never knew having a dog was this much work! At least he's a good boy, he's only made a mess in the apartment a few times, otherwise he'll sit in front of me and whine to let me know he has to go out. Such a good puppy.

... though it's getting weird calling him 'puppy' or 'little fella'. I wish I knew his name. I'd hate to start calling him something and have him get use to it and then find his family. Oh well, we'll see how things work out.

Oh Yaten? I was wondering if you did anything with those pictures you took, I was interested in seeing them. Haha, and I think the puppy misses you. I guess I just don't scratch and pet him right *chuckles*.

001

Wed, 14 Nov 2007 00:35:32 GMT

So... there is this really nice, very pretty girl where I work. She's one of the secretaries, and always says hello to me if we happen to pass each other in the halls, but... she can't seem to take a hint. I don't want to be rude but, I can't go on a date with her. It would be disastrous.

Not because of her. It'd be completely my fault. I just want to prevent it from happening in the first place. I've had to make up excuses many times already... I'm just afraid to tell her no. She's such a sweet girl... *sighs*

I gotta wonder sometimes, why couldn't I be like... hideous? Then I wouldn't have to worry about women coming up to me all the time.